They tried to convince me for a while that I deserve it that if I’m down large masses so happen to always want to kick, and it worked for a while. But that’s just the way it’s always been, and what they’ve always done. They find a way to knock you down, and then large masses are employed to ensure that you will not be permitted to question authority or to stand up to anyone while you are taken advantage of. If your confidence is required they’ll make fun of you, if someone is making fun of you in sadistic ways, they’ll participate, if you are taken advantage of by authority figures they’ll treat you like an authority figure so that you can’t question authority, if you let down your guard they’ll harass you. They try to blind you from this and convince you that you deserve it whenever they think they can, but when things go to shit you always find yourself being preyed on by the same society of disease.

everywhere I go I am harassed and targeted by society.

It seems that I am now out of favour with the pieces of shit that police me as a society, although they still keep overlooking every crucial point as if these were nothing, and proceeding in the enforcement of impossible reality structures. They also often expect me to work myself in some way into a society that’s targeting me and doesn’t allow me any space to live. And when I try to accommodate their relentless psychological campaigns of censorship because these were just not going away, they only become more coercively involved in my life and police it more closely.

the pieces of shit regularly harass me everywhere I go and police me as a society. they shun everything I do, but they happen to know me everywhere I go. others I deal with don't allow me to question a society wherein this happens, because they are pieces of shit too.

the pieces of shit harass me everywhere I go, target me as a society, police my life as a society, and team up against me as a great big herd. They do not allow me to be anywhere or to do anything, and then subject me to the standards of someone that has somewhere to go. They force me to devote my every moment to them in ways on which they can leech, and very quickly revert to their default nazi-asshole mode when I don’t. they speak of some bullshit propaganda society when convenient, they quash dissent, and they systematically go after my every freedom. They do not hear, they do not see, they do not remember, but they are always there to police my life, and although they shun everything I do, they happen to know me everywhere I go.

Today I had to face increased targeting, and so I am writing about it today. It always seems that increased targeting coincides with bad times for me to stand up for myself, but I am not assured that there will ever be a time when I am welcome to stand up for myself.