and it just never fucking ends. the pieces of shit do not ever leave me alone and insist on istigating every kind of bullshit at every opportunity. then, masses of pieces of shit have to also inflict retributions on me for the things they themselves insist on. they are made to look like people, and I have to be under the constant impression that it's people that are treating me in these ways, and then calling themselves many wonderful things, and just no one having any problem with any of this. they constantly do all kinds of things to intensify the pain inflicted and to mask the targeting they insist on in ways that will intensify it. there is absolutely never an instance of me being able to encounter a piece of shit without it leeching on me in some sadistic way. they police my thoughts and my emotions in the names of the stupidest things and just prey on me at every opportunity.
every so often it's also that time when large masses of pieces of shit decide that they will no longer tolerate that you should exist. all your efforts over all that time and reactions to the ways they've been treating you for all those years, just amount to nothing, and the pieces of shit are still just the pieces of shit they were in the first place. you cannot go anywhere or do anything, and everyone you encounter is just the same. then they even treat you as if you have somewhere to go, and use this as an excuse to further restrict your movements and your freedoms.