the pieces of shit relentlessly police my thoughts and my activities by corresponding abuses of my senses. this has the effect that I cannot listen to them or listen to myself. they do this year after year.
in their presence or reach, I must do nothing other than be conscious of my every thought and ensure not to think any thoughts that present any problems and can precipitate any punishments. when speaking I must do nothing other than contradict every lie they tell, or else suffer further punishments (which only destroys critical thinking as one must say things rather than think them and is allowed no distance between what one thinks and what one says - to those who are coercive, manipulative, and tell only lies).
then they also exploit and recontextualize every problem created by this.